Ankit - From ateist to Jesus
Just a few months ago, I was lost. I didn’t know what tomorrow would bring—sometimes not even the next moment. I would wake up with anxiety rushing through my body, worrying about my life and future in a foreign country, with my family and friends thousands of miles away. I didn’t know if I’d have work next month, or how I’d pay rent. But now... I wake up each morning, drink my coffee in peace, and feel secure, hopeful, excited, and loved. You may ask: What has changed? The answer is simpler than you think. It’s nothing—and everything.
Let me start from the beginning. I was born into a Hindu family of engineers. My grandfather, my father, my only brother—all engineers. And me too. So everything we believed and practiced was rooted in science and logic. Naturally, I became an atheist. My family gave me everything material—I was well fed and well kept— but my heart was empty.I chased after the pleasures of the world: love, money, women, distractions, philosophies, even religion. And while they felt good for a moment, afterward I only felt emptier.
It was like a child riding a carousel. At first, it’s magic... but after a few spins, the thrill fades. Soon the child wants more speed, brighter lights, a different horse. That was me. No matter what I tried, the thirst for worldly desires was endless. So I drowned myself in work and moved to Paris to pursue my passion for filmmaking, thinking that would finally make me whole. It didn’t.
But on my very first day in Paris, I met someone who would become my best friend and brother—Emil. I didn’t know it then, but meeting Emil was the beginning of something life-changing. Over the next three years, I spent countless hours with Emil and his family—talking with Aarvid and Maylinn about God. Their home was filled with love, warmth, and deep conversations that gave my restless heart peace.
You can’t choose where you’re born, but you can choose where you will end up. And I ended up with God, and with the Aasen family. On December 31, 2024, I made the most important decision of my life: I accepted Jesus Christ as my Lord and Savior. And from that day forward, everything changed. My life was filled with purpose, joy, and a peace I had never known before.
So yes—many of my old problems still exist. But now I live with hope, because I know Jesus is watching over me. He has a plan for my life. And that changes everything. It didn’t come easily. My journey was full of suffering and searching. But I learned something important along the way. Let me explain with a parable:
If a man is shot by an arrow, the doctor will first try to remove the arrow and heal the wound. But if the man insists, “Wait! Before you treat me, tell me who shot the arrow, how it was made, and what kind of wood it came from”—that man will die. In the same way, you don’t need all the answers before starting your journey with God.
You need to be saved first. And once you are, the answers will come—in His time, in His way. Words alone cannot explain God. Only experience can. Philosophies and debates can take you part of the way, but to truly know God, you must experience Him yourself. Build a relationship with Him. And when you do, you’ll understand Him—not just with your mind, but with your heart.
