Myriam 28 -
From spiritual darkness to Jesus
My life turned 180° when I met Jesus.
My life was turned upside down the moment I met Jesus.
On September 2nd, 2023, I cried out for help to the universe. The universe was silent — but Jesus answered.
At that time, I was in the darkest season of my life. I had returned to my father’s home in France after living 4.5 years in Australia. My world had fallen apart, and I was searching for truth, for answers, and for a way out of the darkness more than ever before.
A bit of my background: my dad is French and my mom is Norwegian. I grew up in France with a father who was very spiritually minded, but not in a biblical way. Today you would probably call it New Age or New Thought. That was all I knew and believed in.
Later, when my parents divorced, I moved to Norway with my mom and finished high school there. Afterward I worked a little in Kristiansand before moving to Melbourne, Australia, to experience more of life.
I got a job, a boyfriend, and started building a new life. I pushed aside spirituality and eventually began studying psychology because I wanted to help people and understand who we are. But after a year, I realized that life had to be more than emotions and the mind — that we also had a spiritual dimension. That’s when I began exploring Hinduism with my boyfriend at the time. When I left that relationship — after realizing how destructive it was for me — I found a group of friends involved in New Age spirituality. It felt familiar, and I thought maybe that’s where the answers were.
I tried to rebuild myself after that breakup, but instead I grew more depressed and stuck. Feeling lost, I decided to travel along Australia’s east coast, hoping it would give me direction and meaning. During that journey, I met someone, fell in love, and ended up unexpectedly pregnant. Abortion seemed like the only solution in that moment, and at the same time I left the man I thought was the love of my life. My heart was shattered.
When I returned to France, everything inside me was broken. I came back to the town where I grew up, but I no longer belonged there. I was filled with sorrow, anger, anxiety, and fear. I didn’t know how to move on or why I even existed. I searched for truth more desperately than ever.
The more I explored spirituality, the more confused I became. Every “truth” contradicted the other. There must be only one truth, I thought. And the more I looked at the world, the more I saw darkness everywhere. How was I supposed to face this world when I was already broken?
When I had tried everything and was more confused than ever, I cried out desperately to the universe:
“How can I live this life? How can I love myself? Have peace? Have healthy relationships? I can’t do this.”
That same evening, I remembered a testimony I had once seen — someone who left New Age and decided to follow Jesus. I watched more testimonies and saw the peace they carried. I thought, That is what I’ve been searching for my whole life.
So I decided to pray and ask God if He was real. And the moment I started praying, everything dark inside me went quiet. I felt the mighty presence of God fill the room. I kept talking to Him and felt a door closing over my heart. At first, I thought I said something wrong. Later I understood that God was closing the door to my old life.
A Christian friend suddenly came to mind, so I sent her a message:
“Hey, I know we haven’t talked in years, but I prayed to God and felt a door close over my heart. Could we talk?”
It was late, so she didn’t reply. The next morning, I decided to go to church to find answers about what I had experienced.
I went to the church, sat alone on a bench in a small chapel, and closed my eyes to pray.
Suddenly, I saw a light coming down from the ceiling — and Jesus was standing beside me, with His hand resting on my shoulder. Tears streamed down my face. I felt like I had finally come home. I didn’t dare open my eyes, afraid He would disappear.
I kept praying, and God showed me images of Jesus’ life on earth — His walk, who He was, and what He did for us. The Gospel.
What amazed me is that I had never read the Bible, yet deep within me I knew this was the truth I had been searching for my whole life.
When I left the church, I felt joy and hope inside me — like something alive awakened within me in a way that contradicted everything I had experienced in the months before.
I eventually got in touch with my friend, who encouraged me to study at a Bible school in Kristiansand. A few weeks later, I started there — and my life has never been the same.
The years since meeting Jesus have been a journey of identity, healing, and freedom — a journey still in progress. God keeps healing my heart and showing me who I am through His Word, His love, and through other people. I’ve come to know God not only as Creator and Lord, but as my Father. It has been a deep, life-changing experience.
Now I live for Jesus — to make Him known, so that anyone longing for hope can find the One who answers every question: Jesus.
My story is not the first, and it won’t be the last, of what Jesus can do and how He meets people. I’m just one of many. But what I love about God is that He desires relationship with every single person He created. He never forces Himself on us — but He answers when we call.
I had to reach my lowest point to realize I needed help from Someone greater than myself. And He answered.
God speaks to us in ways we understand.
So whether you grew up Christian or have never thought about Jesus before, He loves you just the same. He loved you enough to die for you on the cross. And you can receive Him into your heart as your Lord and Savior right now if you want to.
It’s that simple.
And He will show you the way — the One who is the Way, the Truth, and the Life.